Balia Leng's 21st birthday

Let photos tell you all...

Pessimistic Vs Optimistic

Pessimistic?
It might happen to us if we kept facing problems.

But..after that..something goods would happen right?

So,we have to keep going on.

DONT GIVE UP EASILY!

Optimistic?
After all the bad stuffs,my luck would be coming back..
Dearest,I'm waiting for U.We must always think from the bright side!

``夜，寂静与沉默。

它却记载了多少人的述苦，又有多少人的希望是被它所毁灭。

广，划破漆黑的天穹，穿过云层，如弓支般一丝丝的射落于人间，带着无数的希望与升级，感染大

地，让每个人类都是为了希望而存活，为了明天而生存，在多么绝望都好，那也只是黑夜的过渡期，

再漆黑，黎明也会降临，明天会是希望。 ``

Reply to Zhen..

Woi...u hurt me d.................
always say wen in your blog..
haiz....u called wen don forget next friday rite??
den i can forget it bo??LOL.

I Miss U!!

I was doing ntg during the 2 weeks holiday..
everyday stayed at home..
waited breakfast,lunch,dinner..
watched dramaS,tuition and sleep..
Early in the morning,there was no1 in da house.
It was really bored..
I still remember years ago,we would go back to our kampung with other relatives.
It was really happy!
we played,joke and talked non-sense..
the women were busy playing their mahjong.
the men were busy talking about the government.
the children were busy playing poker and watching tv show.
the daughters were caring their father and stepmother.
the sons were thinking how to solve the problems.
we were happy that time!felt happiness!
every Cny,holiday we would group together.
but now,everything seem changed.
we dont gather anymore.
we dont go back kampung anymore.
JUST BECAUSE MY GRANDPA PASSED AWAY!
we're still gather with the relatives around us,
but we dont gather with the relatives whose are living at Ipoh.
the time we meet would be the qing ming.
once a year...kinda least.
all my grandpaS and grandmaS passed away d..
I miss them very much!
they lived my house b4..they taught me many things.
my hakka,mandarin and cantonese..

Eminem feat .Dido - Stan!

just pay attention to my recent updated!
I just added a nice song.
U may heard it when u entered my blog!
It's really nice!
although this song isn't a new song,but it's nice and FUN!
I like its lyrics!
If u really paid attention,u could feel what I felt!
Inside this song,mostly are rapping.
I dont like rapping at all,but i did when i heard this song!
This song is about a crazy fan(stan) and his idol(slim).
he just do wateva his idol did!
he kept writing letter to his idol,but no respond.
from the 1st letter,2nd letter..............
and finally he got mad!Lol..
I dont want to say it all,
otherwise all of u wont listen to it.
It might take u some time,
so...just be patient ya!U wont regret!

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..

got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window..

and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'll all be gray,

but your picture on my wall

It reminds me, that it's not so bad,

it's not so bad.. (x2)

Dear Slim, I wrote but you still ain't callin

I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom

I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em

There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin

Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em

but anyways; fuck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter?

My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm bout to be a father

If I have a daughter, guess what I'ma call her?

I'ma name her Bonnie

I read about your Uncle Ronnie too,I'm sorry

I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him

I know you probably hear this everyday,

but I'm your biggest fan

I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam

I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man

I like the shit you did with Rawkus too,that shit was fat

Anyways, I hope you get this man,

hit me back, just to chat, truly yours,

your biggest fan

This is Stan

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance

I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer fans

If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert

you didn't have to, but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew

That's my little brother man, he's only six years old

We waited in the blistering cold for you, four hours and you just said, "No."

That's pretty shitty man - you're like his fuckin idol

He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do

I ain't that mad though, I just don't like bein lied to

Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd write you

you would write back - see I'm just like you in a way

I never knew my father neither;

he used to always cheat on my mom and beat her

I can relate to what you're saying in your songs

so when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put 'em on

cause I don't really got shit else so that shit helps when I'm depressed

I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest

Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds

It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me

See everything you say is real, and I respect you cause you tell it

My girlfriend's jealous cause I talk about you 24/7

But she don't know you like I know you Slim, no one does

She don't know what it was like for people like us growin up

You gotta call me man, I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose

Sincerely yours, Stan --

P.S. We should be together too

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

Dear Mister-I'm-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans,

this'll be the last package I ever send your ass

It's been six months and still no word - I don't deserve it?

I know you got my last two letters;

I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect

So this is my cassette I'm sending you,

I hope you hear it I'm in the car right now,

I'm doing 90 on the freeway

Hey Slim, I drank a fifth of vodka, you dare me to drive?

You know the song by Phil Collins, "In the Air of the Night"

about that guy who coulda saved that other guy from drowning but didn't,

then Phil saw it all, then at a a show he found him?

That's kinda how this is, you coulda rescued me from drowning

Now it's too late - I'm on a 1000 downers now,

I'm drowsy and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call

I hope you know I ripped +ALL+ of your pictures off the wall

I love you Slim, we coulda been together, think about it

You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it

And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it

I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me

See Slim; {*screaming*}

Shut up bitch! I'm tryin to talk!

Hey Slim, that's my girlfriend screamin in the trunk

but I didn't slit her throat, I just tied her up,

see I ain't like you cause if she suffocates she'll suffer more, and then she'll die too

Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now

Oh shit, I forgot, how'm I supposed to send this shit out?

{*car tires squeal*} {*CRASH*} .. {*brief silence*} .. {*LOUD splash*}

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy

You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?

Look, I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that

and here's an autograph for your brother,

I wrote it on the Starter cap

I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I musta missed you

Don't think I did that shit intentionally just to diss you

But what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too?

I say that shit just clownin dogg, c'mon - how fucked up is you?

You got some issues Stan, I think you need some counseling

to help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down some

And what's this shit about us meant to be together?

That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other

I really think you and your girlfriend need each other

or maybe you just need to treat her better

I hope you get to read this letter,

I just hope it reaches you in time before you hurt yourself,

I think that you'll be doin just fine if you relax a little, I'm glad I inspire you but Stan

why are you so mad? Try to understand, that I do want you as a fan

I just don't want you to do some crazy shit

I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick

Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge

and had his girlfriend in the trunk, and she was pregnant with his kid

and in the car they found a tape, but they didn't say who it was to

Come to think about, his name was.. it was you

Damn!

Tearin' up my heart and soul

It's tearing up my heart when I'm with you.
But when we are apart, I feel it too.

And no matter what I do, I feel the pain
with or without you.

PASS!!!!

don't know why..
I hate people who tell me that he/she pass his/her test and get his/her license..
NO~~~don't tell me you pass!!!
dont tell me you drive yourself.........!!!
think of my feeling......I'm a september baby..
it's still early for me..
I have to finish my spm only I can get my license...
however,I always console myself that.."have people fetch,not go meh??"
NOT GOOD!!!I want to drive myself~!!!
I am ms.Independent!!lol..
omg....................cannot tahan d la....
most of my friends have their license d..


Using old phone recently..
cos I'm using 2 phones..
I tot no photo in the phone d..since i didn't use it for a long time..
but when I opened the receive file..i saw tons of photos..
the memories kept coming back..
and oso his photo..I like it!
He look cute~
messages also...i saved them in a special file..
I viewed back all...sweet man~~lol
MISS HIM!REALLY MISS HIM!!

Happy Birthday, Baby!!

Another big big day for me.

today is my baby (yuko khoo zhi ning)'s birthday!

wish her all the best!Lol.......

Still remember I made a paper clay for her last year.lol

I already single for 2 years.

2/6/2007,I broke with him.

I was guilty that time,but now i knew that now he is very happy~lol

Yeah!!I make it!

I do promised myself after form 5 only paktuo!

just left half year~woohoooo!

Copied from Pn Lim..

I've copied this story from Pn Lim's blog..
It's really meaningful..

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,'Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river.'

The little girl said, 'No, Dad. You hold my hand.'

What's the difference?' Asked the puzzled father.

'There's a big difference,' replied the little girl.

'If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that Imay let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.'

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.

So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours...

This message is too short......but carries a lot of Feeling..

I were a PIG!

Omg.............

how could my holiday be so bored??

I sleep at 1++am everyday,but wake up at 8am..

not even 7 hours..tis call life??tis call holiday??

I finished my drama..

I used 14 hours to finished it...

again..Omg...............................

wat i'm going to do tml??

sleep,eat,play,watch............

I'm on the way to become PIG....

I cant imagine wat is my weight after holiday..

again..Omg................................

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